18 and the Anxiety of growing up.


I’ll be 18 in just days !
* play Ribs by Lorde *

This is supposed to be a birthday wishlist blog post, but I just thought that I have a lot of things included in my list. So I’d just write something different.

You might be thinking that I just made this blog post today, but it’s not. I wrote it a little earlier, as soon as I got the idea. Ahaha.

When I was a kid, I was honestly not frightened about growing up, I wasn’t desperate to grow up either.
But now that I’m here, and time seems fleeting, I just realized that being grown-up means getting a lot of responsibilities. Especially, the responsibilities that you have to take for yourself.
I am kinda ambitious, and one of my greatest fears is to end up nothing in life.

Chasing life, I found new things that I loved and still love : art, writing, advocating. And even some things I can’t mention in here.

Last year, I just started writing my first novel, and it’s something that I always talk about. I’m still working on it, because I promised that I won’t give up on it.
But there’s this little fear inside me that I may not finish what I’ve started. Or what if no agent would believe and hold on to my ideas. What if publishing companies would not like the storyline?
There’s a lot of questions I can form in my head honestly.

Being 18, means starting college too. But the question is: do I yet know where school to go? No.
Am I already decided with the course I wanna take? No.
And this blog!
With that facts alone, you can already tell how anxious I possibly am.
How worried I am with my future.

I am the kind of person who’s working according to the plans. But if I’ll tell you, my plans aren’t made yet.

But on the bright side of life, I’m still looking for whatever thing it is that I can do for my life. At the end, I don’t know the path in front of me, so I just have to keep going.
Even if there are questions, worries, fears, demotivating moments. Whatever it is.

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But again, I have created a newsletter which I’m hoping to be successful.

I got 2 new subscribers when I linked it on my last blog. I’m thankful for them.

I’d also be so so happy if you will add your emails too. If you’re not yet subscribed, here’s the link :

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Why my Blog was so Quiet.


The last time that I posted a Blog was on May 27th. And I am going to tell you why I had to put myself on a hiatus, and show up just now.

The past weeks, social media has been so loud because of the movement you probably know about – The Black Lives Matter movement.
I decided to support that Movement first because c’mon! We need equality. Racism has to stop. And our Black Brothers and Sisters should also be able to live life the way they deserve.

I also became mentally drained, and I felt burned out because I used to stay late at night doing what I can possibly do to help.

Disclaimer : I’m not blaming the movement, It was and it is my initiative to help.

I know I knew what I should prioritize first, and that is to help those who are in need.
So I decided to temporarily stop my blogging game first. And be active on Twitter and Instagram, sign petitions, Send emails, share what I can possibly share. etcetera.

I, then, realize that if it was overwhelming and a little traumatic for me, then what about to those people experiencing racial injustice first hand?

I thought of an Instagram project I wish I can accomplish very soon.
And it’s the #theprojectloveletter.
Anyone can participate, and it’s aim is to make social media a good place for Our Black brothers and Sisters to heal.
If you wanna join, You can do the following :

1. Make a graphic (your letter of love to black people typed on a plain pink image)
2. Post on your feed and put under #theprojectloveletter
3. You can also share to your followers so more people can join.

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The fight isn’t still over. There are lots of things which must still be fixed.
If you wanna do something or do more to support the movement, you can check the link. Here :

BLM Resources

– That link contains resources like petitions to sign, emails to send, websites of where you can donate to, and more.

You are needed in this battle!

I also want to let y’all know that I finally launched my newsletter called “Bookish & Coffeeholic”. This thing is something I’m really excited about.
I’ll start sending messages once I get 20 Subscribers. So if you can sign to my newsletter, I’d be really grateful!
Here you can:

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Here’s the Truth About Productivity // What to Do When You’re Unproductive?


You wake up at 6:00 AM, expecting yourself to be as motivated as you want to be. But as soon as you finished drinking your half-filled cup of coffee, you don’t anymore know where to begin, or what to do to be productive. Suddenly, you lose your inspiration to work, and you just want to get back to bed and sleep again.

And at 5:00 PM, you’re all exhausted even if you’ve done nothing, and you know you did almost nothing. Your friends told you what they did the entire day : they worked out, baked cookies, tidied their room, organized their closet, and gone for a walk. You feel guilty, and wish you felt inspire to work in the beginning of the day.

That is the common scenarios happening when we all battle with Productivity. We want to do every single thing in one day, but feeling like not moving.

Related: How to make the best out of your day?

But do we really have to be working every minute? every hour? Every day?
So right now, here’s the truth about productivity :

*pin it 📌*

° It isn’t Consistent

Your motivation to be productive isn’t consistent. The above scenario explains this one. Sometimes, there are days that you wake up totally determined to work and smash your to-do list. But there also are days when all you want to do is to lay on bed, stare on walls, and do nothing but to find your peace.

° It is Sugarcoated by Social Media

Social media has become a place where day to day accomplishments are shared by people. There are instances where you check your Instagram account, and all that you see on ig stories are to-do list with a lot of check marks. You jump on Twitter, and all you see are tweet updates of people you follow about how good they’re doing with their target activities. And we can be sure that it added so much pressure to everyone to be productive everyday when we wake up. Making accomplishments is good, but it does take time too.

° People Only Show their Best Days

This is the sequel of the truth that ‘productivity is sugarcoated by social media‘.
A lot of us wants to radiate positivity all the time, and we want others to witness our best selves. Everyone doesn’t always wake up positively, some days can be odd and a little negative. When a person is being unproductive, there can only be a little chance that he or she will post it online. He or she, or we, are most likely to keep our unproductive days to ourselves. We tend to be quiet and not talk about it at all.

° Productivity can be Forced, but You Shouldn’t Do So.

Even if you’re feeling unmotivated, you can somehow put yourself on work. But I swear, you won’t get the best results. If something is worth your energy, do it. But if one doesn’t, you don’t have to keep pushing, especially when there’s no deadline.
That is why, productivity can be forced, but you shouldn’t do so.

° You Don’t Have to be Productive All the Time

This is the concluding advice of this post. Say it to yourself, ‘I don’t have to be productive all the time.’
You’re not in a competition, where you should be accomplishing more than anyone would expect from you.
If you’re not so well today, why don’t you try tomorrow?

Instead of being guilty, rather put your time on something fun, lighter to do, and useful:

° Read a book
° Go for a walk
° Exercise
° Watch informative films
° Pet your dog, or cat, or whatever that you have.
° Meditate
° Journal
° Listen to Music
° Eat your comfort food
° Edit Photos
° experiment with Make-Up

Do you also love being Productive? Do you feel pressured by social media in terms of productivity? Got some ideas what alternatives you can do next time you don’t have the motivation to work?

Drop your thoughts and let’s talk!

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What’s up With my Life this Quarantine?


Lately, I’ve been focused on feeding my blog with Informative posts and I’m not gonna lie, I missed writing about my life and me.

I’m happy because if I’m going to tell, I’m having the best time balancing both my online and offline life in these moments full of negativity going around. I love the fact that I’m getting a lot of time investing for myself and for my works.

I honestly exceeded half part of my WIP- the novel I can’t wait to Publish. Let me give y’all hint with the title – 2 words only.
But you can just follow this blog because that is owned by my main girl character.
I don’t know, but I’m getting a lot of motivation lately, especially from the songs I’m listening to. I create a lot of imageries.
I also got a new idea for a second novel I might write anytime. I swear, it’ll be a little different, and personal again.

About blogging, I’m happy that I was able to generate a lot of ideas into blog posts. They’re in store and all ready to be posted. I’m low-key rebranding my blog. I’m going to post more blog and marketing strategies, self-help posts aimed for personal development, + more.
I changed my ‘About‘ Page which I’m so Happy about.
But I’m making sure you’ll still get my poems and prose, even though my creative writing frequency isn’t the same as before.

About Instagram, I’m having a lot of content I can’t wait to release too.
I’m also bringing my advocacies through captions + grow my audience through instagram Strategies.

° You can read my Instagram Coaching Blog Posts Here:

How to Blog like a Pro Amidst of YouTube?

Important Things Instagram Beginners Must Know

I also got to be interviewed and featured on SimplyCreative.com where I talked about blogging, the blogging community, Writing, and reaching people.
Read here: My Blogger Interview @ Simply Creative

However, I struggle to focus with my Spanish Course. It’s just hard to multitask. I can’t deny.

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What are your Projects in the moment? Excited for my future Informative Blog posts? Who’s the musical artist/s your loving in the moment?

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Blog Redesigned in Collaboration with Zoe Ware


It’s already April. 2020 came and I was quiet about the look of my website, apparently I never moved anything from it, but I’m so happy to announce that I finally redesigned my blog. 🎊 I mean, nothing’s surprising. It was already the title 😂. However, I feel so accomplished and just love love how it all came up.

At first, I just changed my theme. That took me quite long because I was so sticked with ‘Libre 2’ and ‘Penscratch’, themes which I used enough. I wanted something new and be challenged on putting the graphics, and I got the theme ‘Lovecraft’ and ended up so happy with how it turned out, I also added a peachy background to slightly run away from being minimalist.

Okay, so what’s making me so thrilled about this news is the fact that the header and the sidebar designs aren’t my own works. On my past blog designs, I was always working alone. I get ideas from Pinterest, and I would lie if I will say that I was always happy with all of my designs.
Alright, you might be wondering how I managed to put such aesthetics without actually getting myself to work.
I am so proud because all these things happened because I made my first collaboration with a talented and amazing graphic designer, who’s also a blogger and Youtuber, and a creative. And she is Zoe Ware.

I follow Zoe on Twitter and I got the chance to get my Custom Header for free, because she was giving away samples at the time. And days after, I got the Idea if she would like to work with me. I was glad and lucky enough when she willingly agreed.

Her works are undeniably gorgeous and something which you will not regret after availing. If you need header or other designing essentials for your blog, or if you’re a Youtuber and want to get your custom Banner, I’m hundred percent sure she’s the right person. I definitely recommend her works. She also sell other products on her shop, like embroidered clothing, macrame hangers, and other room stuffs you’ll love.

Here are some sample of her works :

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Read and avail what you love on her blog/shop:
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Subscribe to Zoe’s YouTube Channel:
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How’s my blog look? Also planning to redesign your website? Checking out Zoe’s works?

Tell me your thoughts and we’ll talk!

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